Ambience soundscape + Emotions

Its been a while since those naturally ambience-ing tone lingering and surrounding my ears, creating that atmospheric depth, warm and soothing to the soul. Remind me of beautifully crafted musics someone did all this while. Perplexed yet amazed by this touching melody, emotions start to kick in, reminiscing all these years of forgiving hearts and lending helps. In the end, nobody seems to care, seems to concern, except those closes to your heart – Family.

Caressing my soul, emotionally balancing deep thoughts have yet to succumb over me, giving out its full potential, remembering oldies, touches the heart to the very point of nerves. All alone, all by myself, yet family support is so tender, people makes use of others, lending help has never been so hard as before where pure appreciation came in just in a tickling of time.

Been all this while serving, giving, caring, endlessly in all aspects, whether intentional or unintentional, has been turned down yet piercing to the very deep of my heart, self pity has never been an issue now or forever, none applies to this context of thoughts. Church goers are becoming too mainstream nowadays, forgetting the spiritual life that one need to acquired, instead of hanging out with friends loitering around with no purpose-driven. Serving has been hard, language barrier, overtaking issues, pride, ‘selfless’ heart, manipulative and monopolising issues has been so far becoming a inner warrior issues in every man’s heart.

' Close ones ‘ – those you care before or now, been using you, leading oneself to deep emotional state of ambience saddened heart, without realizing how selfish one can be in this area, gaining much possessions and art of helping, throwing all the needs away, forgetting what lies ahead. Barriers or rather lots of barriers, broken down by the blood, unity in Christ, maintaining and uplifting His Grace given for free to us, without overlooking problems, accidents, happenings in life, all bounded by soundscape of Grace, yet ambiencing out thoughts to the very soul.

By His blood, we shall be set free, by His grace, we shall be victorious in life, and by His wisdom, we shall be overcomers, for He wipe out every tears, replacing it with unending love, joy, peace, fruitful thoughts, and above all, His everlasting love for us. Amen. Alex.

       

Feelings and forgiveness

Often when we have dealt Scripturally with bad feelings that have been aroused by a certain situation, we like to believe that we will not suffer them again. In some cases, we don't. But, as human beings, we may experience situations in our lives that stir up painful feelings about certain persons or events. Those feelings in themselves are not sinful. But if we respond to them with unremitting anger and hostility, they can rob us of fellowship with the Lord, His peace and joy, and abundant life. Psalm 37:1 advises us not to fret because of evildoers (Psalm 37:1). We mustn't dwell on the grief others have caused us. Instead, we are to seek the Lord's help, and forgive again.

Samuel Johnson said, "A wise man will make haste to forgive, because he knows the true value of time, and will not suffer it to pass away in unnecessary pain." (The Rambler).

Painful feelings may involve a missing or abusive parent, an errant or abusive mate, an ungrateful, uncaring child, or even something wrong that we did in the past. As an example of the latter, some women have told their close ones of their guilt and self-accusation concerning abortions or the breakup of their marriages that have haunted them for years. Even though they had asked the Lord's forgiveness, they had not been able to forgive themselves, until they realized the depth and reality of God’s forgiveness.

According to the psalmist, God has removed our transgressions from us as far as the east is from the west (Psalm 103:12). Forgiveness is a key remedy for relief from painful feelings. If those feelings are caused by another person, we are wise to follow Jesus. advice when He said we are to forgive those who sin against us a limitless number of times, "until seventy times seven' (Matthew 18:22).

Two ways to go

Jesus gave us this teaching perhaps as much as for our sakes as for those we forgive. How can we enjoy His love, peace, and joy if we harbor wrath, malice, anger, bitterness and hostility toward someone else, or speak slanderously of that person. According to Ephesians 4:30-31, we grieve the Holy Spirit when we do that. And the Spirit is the source of love, peace, and joy (Galatians 5:22). The proper response is given in Ephesians 4:32 "being kind, tenderhearted, and forgiving, even as God for Christ' sake forgives us." How can we do that?

The Son of God knew all things; so He also told us to love our enemies and pray for those who persecute us (Matthew 5:44). According to Roget's Thesaurus, 'persecute' means to molest, wrong, or 'torment' 'to annoy or disturb with hostile intent or injurious effect.'

Bitterness and anger at God and others because of past experiences cause many people misery for years. Such hurtful feelings can mar their lives and those of others close to them. How sad that they have thus wasted their lives on self-pity! The best way we can reject bitter thoughts and feelings is through forgiveness. "Make every effort to live in peace..See to it that, no bitter root grows up to cause trouble and defile many" (Hebrews 12:14-15). Wise Christians put their trust in the love and power of God and reject bitterness and self-pity.  In so doing we have achieved Christ's abundant life in spite of whatever has happened in our lives. Let us begin this new year with love and enjoy the peace of God that passes all understanding. Amen.

                                

Its Christmasssssss….^.^

She looked at the gift. It looked sooo different than the others under the tree. It was so carefully wrapped and even had a ribbon tied in a bow. In rich red paper it was beautiful! This gift was larger than the others too. Something was missing… It didn’t have a name on it. She couldn’t ask whose it was; it seemed too special. She just looked in wonder. Just having it under the tree added something special to Christmas.

That Christmas, along with other holidays, was not special. Holidays, in her home, were filled with lots of misunderstandings.

And it always led to yelling. . .

Yelling led to fights. . .

Fights sometimes went beyond words . . .

In the home the “special” had been lost in holiday events. This Christmas in particular was framed in angry discussions of job loss and financial stress.  She overheard a lot.

The GIFT was so mysterious; it was a blaze of red color in her black and white world. It captured her mind.

She could hardly contain herself as the time came to open presents! She is the youngest of four. Presents were handed out in order, oldest to youngest. Each time another gift was handed out the anticipation built.

It did not go to her sister. . .

Her youngest brother did not get it. . .

Her middle brother was given the box next to it. . .

Next, her mom’s hand reached for THE gift . . . her world went into slow motion when she handed THE mysterious, beautifully wrapped gift to her! For just a moment she didn’t move. Maybe it was a mistake… then she saw the hidden tag; it said, “To Alice from Santa.”   It was real. It was for her. Her fingers began to un-wrap the box; she was still in disbelief.  As the paper fell away, she could hardly believe my eyes; a brand new pair of pink ice skates. “New for ME!” she said.  Being the youngest daughter with two older brothers almost nothing was new coming to her. Now right in front of her were brand new shiny ice skates.

She remember nothing else of that day beyond skating up and down the ice covered country roads. She was the only one thankful for the recent ice storm! In the next few days, she is sure she must have broken some world record for the distance skated by a 9 year old girl.

That gift lifted her out of a fog. She is not sure what she would label the fog. Maybe it was the expectation that somehow Christmas should be special. Maybe it was TV or maybe comments she heard at school but somehow she thought Christmas should be a special time. The mysterious gift made that Christmas the most memorable of her childhood. She never found out who “Santa” was. She wish she could say, “Thank you” and let them know how much that gift meant. Someone’s kindness made a significant impact and a memorable Christmas.

She now know there is another mysterious gift that makes Christmas special.  Often it is missed in the busyness, emotion or misplaced focus of the season. This gift has removed the fog of despair that had a grip on her life. This mysterious gift came in the form of a baby born in a stable. When she consider that Jesus left the perfection of heaven, it is almost incomprehensible. He came to walk the planet He created. Each day, His heart was broken by the people he came to serve. He did this for nine year old girls. All this is wonderful, mysterious and beautiful. What a gift. Since she knows THIS gift giver, she can say “Thank you” for a life changing gift. 

Have you considered Jesus, the One whose heart has been broken and He knows all your hurts and sorrows. Would you like to know Him personally?  You can by simply opening up your life to Him and asking Him to come into your life, forgive you sins and be direct your life from this moment on. You can pray a prayer something like this:

Lord Jesus, I want to know You personally. Thank You for dying on the cross for my sins. I open the door of my life to You and ask You to come in as my Saviour and Lord. Take control of my life. Thank You for forgiving my sins and giving me eternal life. Bring peace to my world this Christmas. Make me the kind of person You want me to be.

If you invited Christ into your life, thank God often that He is in your life, that He will never leave you and that you have eternal life. As you learn more about your relationship with God, and how much He loves you, you’ll experience life to the fullest. Have a early blessed Xmas guys and girls, enjoy the story…and this seasons of love. and blessings….Alex.

 

                                   

The Heart Conscience

Deep into the very being of us, there’s this urge to try out a vast range of stuffs either we are conscience or not about the ending part that we are going to endure. But when success turns out to be an aberration, we starts to put the blame either on ourselves or those that is so close and mean the most to you.  The perpetual abhoring of situations prolonged one’s suffering and pains with the clear heart conscience of what’s happening around. Despite the arcane fact that darks remain hidden, and lights remain uncovered, some non-fruitful and selfish demands are not to be seen or treated as an acquiesce, far more indulging yourself with alacrity with a purpose of appeasing both side. Such avarice of heart its gonna takes some time for it to gain back the original conscience and coherent of thoughts.

Its always been a grey matter to have a clandestine liaison without realizing what’s the consequence that we have to endure finally. Some party suffers or other words, coerced into a dark matter which in one way or other, affects those surrounding people. Complacency heart has been too naïve to connive plans that will strike the very deep of one’s heart, hurting so much that even the truth shall be forcefully twisted. Its only through the power of love and the Blood that Christ has given us which surpasses all understandings, all thoughts and no greater sins or mistakes that we have done are too massive for Him to deal with. Yet even with this in mind, heart can be debased and deceived into conceiving negative thoughts and feeling rather to detest the truth within one’s action.

Excessive deferential to one’s character can be fatal to our heart conscience even without us realizing it. Too much of indulging ourselves into one’s shoes and thoughts of their heart has proven to be fruitless and yet we still wanna remain in it with the so-called clear conscience of our heart. Its time to abraid our heart, our soul, and our mind to be wise in everything that we are dealing with, not to be sloppy as before, as this will only lead to wider misunderstandings and hurts. This is what we called an evolue, primitive thinking that has been shaped and educated in modern ways.

Our ways of doing and coping with things has been a very verisimilitude situation, in which we are unaware of what we have done until the stage of harboring this consequence and foolishly troubles those that are giving you much concern. Learn to appreciate, instead of being a tyro and tractable person, to give your beloved one a fair treat, I believe is far more decent act rather than indolent or feel that oneself is inept to carry out any tasks.

The heart has been a weak source of spring and thoughts in which one can be either deceived or learnt from it, gaining enough information to justify it. It has been a link to different mentality, relationships and school of thoughts, with others regard it as a stressful mechanism that makes someone crazy after years of studying it. Chances don’t just come by and go, its either we learn to appreciate it or leave it. The more we suppress ourselves into doing what is right in His sight, we’ll never learn or accomplish anything big in our lives.

As far as the tile goes by, with our own heart and mind conscience in doing things that are so appealing to us sometimes, learn to differentiate between good and evil. Since we are already accepted and He has given us a second chance, grab it seriously and learn to strive upon it, without looking back, but instead keep on pressing for Him till you see His face, embracing you with a welcoming love, whispering in your ears saying ‘I love You’. Alex.

 

                                 

Good Time With Him

A sudden reminiscing of my younger days, school days, whereby whenever I’m done with my homework and studies, esp during  weekends, at my lovely home, grabbing up my beloved tools, my guitar, times when I haven’t own my very 1st rig, just dedicated a simple praise song to Him, and tat time, this familiar ‘Give Thanks’ song opened up my heart and love enjoying in His presence everyday of my life. His everlasting love is just amazing………

Its been 4 yrs since I recorded my very own video, nt sure whether shd I continue to do so, but then here’s a simple message, a simple text, a simple song, a simple guy, with strong love for Him, with a crappy electrics skill…thank you Lord for bringing me through everything ya…this is for u only, Lord, blowing my kisses to u, take care of me ya…^.^ Alex.

          

May 2008

Love, Sense, Secure

Little by little, step by step,
Overcoming the fear of life,
Venturing into this phlegmatic world,
Embracing your beauty and love

Stronger and wider,
Endless miles of journey,
Nothing is too hard,
Stay calm guarding your heart,
Embracing your beauty and love

Secure your heart,
Enlighten your mind,
Calming your soul,
Until the suitable moment,
Rest assured yourself,
Embracing your beauty and love

 

                                

Lithe Stability…

It has been a cold, winter-like weather for the past long weeks. Temperament..yet phlegmatic individual like me would just breezed through these calm and affectionate weather, softly lingering around me like the fragrance of roses. Its been tractable and docile to lie down emotionlessly at those comfy bed inheriting those fresh sumptuous air around…while waiting for the time to pass….and pass…………till at a moment of time when I realized its been too sweet and comfy to just been impassive and morose..sullen..gloomy…

Next chapter of event would be little guy like me waking up with sleepy rabbit-like eye hovering around like the spirit, didn’t capture that incoming time moment of intensity schedule, but just relaxing and enjoying that particular frame of time, as the title goes, with lithe stability…..4pm in this breezy evening filled with harmony chirping sound of birds lingering around just….just makes me feel insoucient.  Melodious with dulcet singing of wind blowing around fairly with ease just makes one’s soul calm down, refocusing on the next event going on….

Sometimes I’ve been too obsequious in certain things without realizing its been a while and changes need to be done, or rather keep it right with God. Its returning back to Him, back to his lovely yet gentle embrace that is far…far more truthful than any other things in life, things u pursue after, things u sought after, things u wish for, things u dream of….and even things u care the most….sought after His love, with a pure heart, and u shall see His riches, His glory, His mercy pouring upon u endlessly and all these things shall be added unto you…and those joy and love that u will be experiencing are truly, truly the very best that you can hold onto…even tears of joy starts dropping down, into the very wells of my eyes, the very deep space in my heart just filled with the hovering of His love, His spirit, enjoying these lil’ moment of absolute zenith peace in my very own heart…and soul….

Being sensitive to the soft gentle touch and voice from the spirit is a key to your lithe stability as the title goes by….gentle and tickling yet beautiful voice of life breathing into your ear, passing by your auditory canal, and striking the very deep in your brain, your cerebrum, your thoughts, …….it starts to build up the stability of yours little by little, reminiscing all those little stuff that had been cruelly kept aside in the past by our own insensitiveness. Ohh, how the little angel of Him has been comforting us, reminding us since we open up our heart and our ear to just listen to Him…

Our very own etiquette maxims are sometimes been cared upon too much in a certain state of bringing us down instead of pursuing after Him. The very trifling things that we sought after are insignificant in His eyes, yet we still unknowingly following it without realizing how unimportant is that till we opened up our eyes. Too much stability and how firm we are in life doesn’t reflect who we are in Christ, unintentionally makes proud and selfishness creeping slowly like the first sins that had ever been committed…luring us into the very deep of darkness.  Shifting our thoughts and actions towards Him, and Him alone shall overcome all these, even if u already knew about this, yet it’s the gentle reminder from the spirit that these are the things that u should know, and by the wisdom that He gave us, shall makes us the great overcomer in life……

Its 4.30pm, spending half an hour crapping…teehee….its isn’t just a mere crap of words, but rather enjoying in His wonderful blessings and love that makes our life really counts, so much so that the bond is getting stronger and stronger, each and everyday of our lives….smile, for God has given us the very pleasing gift of life, that is your lovely sweet lil smile…^.^ Alex.