Its been a while since I left my blog untouched, winded around the hardwire, stranded upon like a free-flying bird stuck upon certain tree branches. Indeed it had been a hard time and brought upon much strain and tense chilling up my veins. Going through the state of emotions so deeply pressed upon not to mention the players involved, had been an acquisition of myself, or rather being taken over, being stopped momentarily for a moment of time frame, being halted of my own pace, being relentlessly stressed up with others who acted so called vigilantly upon watching every move and step and even every contacts that I made.
Shouldn’t be much of a problem for anyone, anyone in this earth to have its own wishes and dreams no matter how truthful or faithful to its own faith. No matter how much thoughts are poured upon, no matter how much pains and sacrifices you made, its of no intention in terms of harming others, why? Wanna know why? The title speaks for itself, do you find anyone who willingly sacrifices their own dreams and instead of pursuing for it, you are influenced and lastly halted just because of no reasons? Guess it ain’t and not going to happen for those who have dreams.
People might have a vast range of thoughts and so called intellectual opinions to fight with your dreams, doesn’t matter how your dreams and wishes appear like, some will try their very best to oppose it and when it comes to their own, they will push so hard and spending so much time blasting out their intellects and so called righteousness just to defend it. How funny is this thing happen to all mankind which includes you and me. Certain reference or leverage had been called upon and done through non-stop inspection upon you. Doesn’t matter where you are, they seems to know everything and anything you think and do. Its crazy isn’t it, sometimes we talk about freedom in Christ and be free of all bondages and yet people are trying so hard pouring their thoughts on others, knowingly or unknowingly stopped the flows and work of Christ upon us.
Learning is a process that had to be gone through not only in terms of academic performance or just how well you win a conversation/thoughts or how good are you trying so hard to justify yourself until the end of the world, (laugh at this for a while, guess I’m trying to be a bit hypocrite here, blah..) you never gain any approval for it. Yes, 90 percent above of all approval are co-related with hatred and envyness. Truthful approval hardly acknowledged nowadays. Let alone your wishes and dreams, as the title stated. Its has gone so far, so far away from this reality world, seemingly flashing out, bursting away in a millisecond, care-less of your thoughts and time. Pursuing for it? Nah, at some moment of truth, you will be stopped. Trying to be pushful and acting strongly for it? Self satisfaction alone is what you will get in the end. Not to be negative or what, the world just revolves around and around. People just have their thoughts pouring out and out like the fountains and most waterfall that you can imagine.
Indeed its had been a long way to go, I’m just 22, just. Some thoughts its time to do that, to pursue after certain things, well, I have my own, and if you were in my shoes, you weren’t want to tie the shoelace, let alone walk with it, if you know what I’m trying to say. The moment of truth had long gone, gone after the wind. Its been a long journey of this life, and yet it seems so fulfilling. Fulfilling for yourself is good enough rather than trying every methods and old-school stuff that you can possibly learn in this earth to satisfy others.
Wishes and dreams, here you are, positive thinking and relaxing all the way from your creation and there is no end for it. People had been using both of you for their own and for others. How unfair to you, wishes and dreams. Stay strong and steadfast, for one day, you might be just the sparkling pearl that stay shining at some point of one’s life. Alex
